Becoming a More Beautiful Version of Myself

Have you ever stood in a room and wondered what to do?  How do I begin again? How can I change what I am doing? What would make this situation better right now?  I don’t know what to do, where do I begin?  These were all questions I was asking myself one sunny, hot, Mississippi day. I was currently searching for answers on the internet, in prayer, and with my closest friends. I had ideas about what I really wanted to do, how I could offer my gifts and talents, and the  vague picture I had in my mind for moving forward, but I didn’t know where to begin, so I picked up my phone and called someone named, Nicole Vienneau! 

She didn’t answer!  I was beginning to feel defeated when, to my surprise when she actually called me back!  I had left a message, probably not a very coherent one, as I was nervous and I really didn’t know what I was doing, but she called me back!  It was the turning point and I have remembered that conversation for the past five years now.  My friendship with Nicole has blossomed into a thing of beauty and I have shared many of my life’s challenges and joys with her over the past five years. 

After that phone call, I picked up the phone again and registered for the in-person Integrative Nurse Coach’s program which later became an online program after the COVID pandemic began.  I had the opportunity to travel to Union, WA in the gorgeous Pacific Northwest and begin my healing journey.  I was met by some of the most loving, open, optimistic, heart-felt women I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.  I have made some lasting friendships with these amazing people, and I cherish each of them for being with me along this life journey.

We began by getting to know each other in a group circle, which I was not familiar with, and truth be told, it was scary to me to be opening up to strangers because I hadn’t even opened up to those I loved and cared about in my own family about my life experiences.  I am an introvert, and I am used to hanging back, observing, checking out the environment, and only with great trepidation and difficulty sharing with others, so I could hide for a while, but ultimately, it did become my turn, and what I discovered was that I wasn’t alone anymore.  There were other individuals in our group who were struggling, looking for answers, suffering, and now, bravely opening up.  I took the plunge.  I opened my heart and bore my scars, sharing some of the worst and most difficult moments of my life with these people. I started to uncover the years of trauma, the shame, guilt, and complete loss of my identity.  I took the chance because I felt safe.  In that circle I understood that I was being held, loved, and heard in a deep way, in a way I had never experienced before, and I was finally seen.

Over the course of the next six months, I had moments of complete frustration, trying to learn skills and ways of knowing and being as a person and a nurse, I didn’t completely understand, but in time, through experience, I began to embrace myself and see what was transforming before my eyes; I was transforming and so were the others in my groups.  What we were learning about and how we were growing was helping us become the vessel in which we would hold others and their experiences. 

We are all cracked pots letting light seep into parts of us that don’t work anymore.  That is what makes us beautiful!

I have never looked back since becoming a Nurse Coach.  I have connected and stayed connected to many of the women I met during my program.  I have developed lifelong friendships with my colleagues.  I have become more vulnerable and authentic in my daily life, leaving behind parts of my life that don’t work anymore, letting go more easily, and allowing my light to shine through my cracks.  I was never perfect, despite trying to be, and now, I am a new vessel and I daily have the privilege of holding space, listening, and honoring others who are brave enough to walk alongside me on this journey.

Before leaving Harmony Hill, I asked for two gifts from the universe when I was completing my Integrative Nurse Coach™ program:  one was to live in the Pacific Northwest and the other was to one day become faculty for the Integrative Nurse Coach Academy.  I stood on the steps overlooking the water, raised my eyes to the universe and boldly asked for what I wanted.  The universe answered!  I have had the privilege of being a resident of the Pacific Northwest for over three years and I am currently Senior Faculty with the Integrative Nurse Coach Academy.

BE bold!  Ask for what you want!  What you are searching for is right before you.  You only need to take the first step.  I’d love to walk alongside you. 

If you are interested in joining us on this journey to becoming an Integrative Nurse Coach™ please do!  If you would like to receive $100 off the complete program, please use my coupon code: HollyK1

Reach out!  I love to connect!  I’d love to walk alongside you in your desire to become a better version of yourself by working with me! You can find me at holly@lifecyclebalance.llc